Wednesday, June 22, 2005
{ 1:21 AM }
i've just got back from family camp,it was just awesome..the breeze from the rides..was just so relaxing!! it made you feel like you're in heaven but somehow i had fears in me.. How i wish i could turn back time.. a time when i can choose to start everything afresh and totally new again .. but i would choose to preserve those precious memories that i had with some wonderful people whom i have met..maybe some things are just not meant to be mine..I just didn't treasure those moments that i've got...it just seems to be a fairy tale..Somehow as days goes by,i tend to miss you even more even though its not meant to be..but i just hope you would understand what i'm trying to tell you ..
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
{ 2:35 PM }
well,i 've learnt something that is in life you can never expect everyone to be perfect because no one is perfect,everyone would sure to commit a sin.What can i expect from everyone??But still i have to accept for who the person is..But will everyone accept me for who i am and what i am ? i don't want to be the clown in everyone's eyes..am i ? sometimes i do question myself..have i been a good frien to my friends? or just a burden to them ?
I went for camps last week and something just struck me when we were doing a sessions..and this song made an impact on me so deeply that tears just came off like running taps..its about forgiving one another,all my past was just like a flashback to me.. my hurts,my pains,my sadness all the unnecessary baggage that i've been carrying it for the past years, i can't believe that it's still on my shoulders..but when HE said that i should just leave everything to him and he will help me carry it for me..somehow i felt very light..so light that i can actually fly..and sometimes i ask myself.what are my hurts ?? why is it still bothering me so much that i can't even let it go !! is it because its too hurtful or too painful..till today, i don't even have the answer to myself..can you help me answer my question..
But i'm really so thankful to God that i 've so many wonderful people around me..esp my mum ( i love you lots)..my cornerstones-laurie,jill,justina,nini,larri,( maybe the camp brought us closer even more),ming,yvette..and those darlings that is so dear to me..so many that i'm so malas to mention your name..i just really hope that our friendships will never end..*muacks*