Monday, September 26, 2005 { 11:23 PM }

so long to update you guys again..was really busy what myself.. tanning,shopping,studying as well..hmmm but whats really keeping me busy ?? just finish my church dinner&dance, honestly speaking, i wasn't really in to the mood of the dnd,it's like it the middle of nowhere...there comes a dinner and dance for what occasion?? I don't even have the answer in my mind.. maybe only for the sake of having one den we had one?? I wasn't really excited i can say,drama happened and it was really scary man, if you were there to view it live!! oh man,that's it !! For those who was there live, i think you can hardly catch a breathe also right..the tension was SHIOK SHIOK only ... but it was alllll in the morning, trying to get the deco done was really a hard work man,well done stones..we did it!! But overall, dnd was pretty okay i can say,not really perfect but just right.. people was having fun,going crazy but at the end of the day,we went back with a a smile on everyone's face..

Today went to town with my best buddies, went to bugis to check out my adidas jacket and guess what.. the one that i liked was SOLD OUT,i was quite upset but the guy said that the stock would actually come in either next wed/thu hopfully i can get to see it wear it and make it mine..hahah,sound so mad !! and guess what, my twin went to get her belly pierced, oh man i was like totally freaked out.. and she was like asking me 'Hey, you want to do it together ? ' At first, i wasn't really keen to do it..becoz of the past experiences from my friends who got their belly pierced was like scary man.. haha,but somehow it look cool and.. funky and sexy la.. if you're slim and have a good figure.. and i can really admit that i don't have what it requires, jus too bad for me..but i've decided to lose those fats and those spare tyres man..seriously,its just time to get ride of it .. bad man..coz ppl like making fun of me,like what the F***...these people just so sickening..!! sigh -don't tell me the same thing again..excerise..i'm trying ok .. !! I just need time i guess...my time is not up yet .. but i'll do it when my when those spare tyres are out of my way...

Monday, September 12, 2005 { 1:17 AM }

i dont know why am i feeling this way now.. but honestly this really sucks..!! it really sucks really badly!! I really don't like this kind of feeling but i guess i've to go through it one more time again..feel like cying, guess there's no more tears to flow out from my eyes anymore Sigh~~ I feel that the world like drifting apart, it no longer seems to be as one anymore!! why.. people kana chop and left at orchard mrt station - why these ppl really got nothing better to do to chop ppl's body and gets a life sentenced or smth worst.. people killing people- fun meh? do these kind of things?? Right now, i'm feeling that no one really understands me.. no even my closest frien(do i have one in the 1st place?) duno la, i'm like so alone.. A-L-O-N-E..ms Lonely is me now..i'm afraid to be alone now..not saying that i've got no friends but just no one seems to be there for me now..I remember very clearly what my frien said,there is no answers to everything unless you've already have one in mind..But what's my answer to everything..I dont wan to add on burden to all my friends.. being a burden is like so heavy..!! EVen my family, i don't play a part now.. i'm no longer jasmine in the family anymore..everyone has their own lives to live with and what am i .. i'm just the blacksheep of the family..everyone seems to hate me in their lives but i've never asked them to love me.. I've come in into many friendships and broke some of them..if i know this day will come.. i wld just be myself and be alone..and be a loner..!! being a loner is not a bad choice, just that you wld have to do your own things, and make your own F***ing decision when things goes wrong.. It just seems to me that i've been living in my own world, I just feel like leaving everything behind including the wonderful friendships that i had with many of you coz i don't wan to be a burden anymore.. maybe this is a test tat i wld have to go thru again.. but this time.. i wld have know the results by now..- FAILED

Tuesday, September 06, 2005 { 1:59 AM }

finally i'm back to update you guys for what i've been doin for the past few days/week/whatever that is .. anyway .., jjust came back ma camp..not my camp,but someone elses camp! a church camp-sec 2 camp..hahah..enufff !! it's tiring..talks are boring,games was fun,food was horrible- esp the milo yucks !!,people was funny/drama/ emotional.. hmmm...i've made new friends,friends from a different world, with different points of view..but we belong to one family, one god, one community...!! hahahx*
I've learnt that everyone is a gift from god..each one of us has differents talents because god has made us in a special way..no one in this world is perfect, everyone has to go through life in a different way, maybe some are the same, but no everyone has the same shit*

my stones has really helped me to back god.. to find him back in my life,not easy thou but i've made it .. thanks stones..~luurve you guys!!

Jess* thanks the belt even though still can't make it yet..but i'll try my 110% to get it on..lrrve you all
*ad,ming,jess,vette,shell*
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