Miss Congenialty

2009-10-28T23:50:00.003+08:00

9 mins more and this day is offically over.
waited for him to come but no news about him .
tried calling him and sent him a couple of sms,
but in the end , no response at home.

my mind is filled with many thoughts.
anything about him .
i see him everywhere in the room .
just that i don't get to see him at work now.

all that i'm asking for you to come back to me..

please

baby , can you hear me ? i miss you

2009-10-28T01:50:00.003+08:00

ages since i've been back here to say what i wanna say , feel what i'm feeling.

i'm in a complete lost of words at this present moment.
i don't know what to say coz my mind is blank.

depressed and sadness are my companion for tonight.
they've been with me since he left.

the room is felt with complete emptiness and silence at night.
no one seems to be beside me any longer.
there's no more smell that belongs to you any longer.

i'm losing out everyday.
feeling fearful, so scared that i might bump you into you one fine day.
but it didn't seem the way it is.
deep down, i was really hoping to see you again .
i want to hear you , feel and to hug you and to tell you how much i love you .

I'm sorry that I hurt you
I took for granted all you gave so freely to me
I prayed it's not too late
To save you from a broken heart
To promise you I'll make a brand new start
Believe me when i say

You are all that I need
The only treasure I see
You're the air that helps me breathe
through the darkest night
When I fall down on my knees
I was blind but now I see
You are all that I need

please come back to me baby ..

I love you ..

2009-04-15T10:39:00.002+08:00

Songkran is a Thai traditional New Year which starts on April 13 every year and lasts for 3 days. Songkran festival on April 13 is Maha Songkran Day or the day to mark the end of the old year, April 14 is Wan Nao which is the day after and April 15 is Wan Thaloeng Sok which the New Year begins. At this time, people from the rural areas who are working in the city usually return home to celebrate the festival. Thus, when the time come, Bangkok temporarily turns into a deserted city.

Songkran is a Thai word which means "move" or "change place" as it is the day when the sun changes its position in the zodiac. It is also known as the "Water Festival" as people believe that water will wash away bad luck.

The Songkran tradition is recognized as a valuable custom for the Thai community, society and religions. The value for family is to provide the opportunity for family members to gather in order to express their respects to the elders by pouring scented water onto the hands of their parents and grandparents and to present them gifts including making merits to dedicate the result to their ancestors. The elders in return wish the youngsters good luck and prosperity.

ooo wells, i was there for this Songkran festival in ChiangMai. I really enjoyed myself!! thumbs up to us and everyone who was there.

its was awesome how we can just splash water on strangers, people whom you not know, but they would just turn to you and give you a great smile.
I remember what my dad did.. he saw mr policeman coming towards us, and from the back dad jus splash water on him..it was really a sight to see..

I hope to go back there again!! chiangmai..

will upload photos for you all to see...

2009-04-10T00:11:00.001+08:00

another 6 more hours, i'll be off to thailand again !!

Wee, excited.. and exciting!

finally can meet my auntie and uncle again ~~

happy holidays to me n ourselves..

love...

2009-04-07T01:28:00.001+08:00

counting down to my trip

3 more days

2009-04-06T01:24:00.003+08:00

work hasn't been really good for me!
too many to handle!

people at work has been really nice..
made a few new friends that has given me a chance to get to know them and also their culture..

someone went to bangkok and bought me something~
hahah.. thank you Mr Brian Bong~

wendy came back from nkg and bought me pretty lots of things..
she bought me a duck ! yan shuai ya~ all the way from china!!
so nice of her.. thanks wendy!

Wee~ i can't wait for cnx to come~
counting down to 4 more days..

here i come...

2009-03-22T23:11:00.005+08:00

my dearest stones:

my previous past was not refering to any of you ,
if it refer to anyone of you , i'm truly sorry

this post is for my another group of friends at work.
my foreign friend whom i have been really close has been ignoring me at work..
and this friend is resigning n returning back to china in May.
she is peggy and in the previous post i've mentioned about her.

and venisa, if you really think i'm self-centered.
i'm sorry

i never meant to hurt anyone in my blog.. sorry

2009-03-22T02:08:00.004+08:00

i guess for my 3 days off, i would have to stay at home and rot..
i don't seem to get enough rest myself
i should give myself a pat on my shoulder,
two days in a row, i receive compliments from my passengers... Wee~

But there's something i really upset.

it don't even takes you a long time to reply an sms, is really an excuse!

i just have to take my hat off you ! and to everybody.

i guess its time for me to leave those friends behind and make new ones...

its really very tiring..

i'm really tired..

2009-03-18T00:44:00.003+08:00

Bah! I have no inspiration to blog lately, don't know why. During droughts like this I often think that my blogging time is up and I will slowly rot into obscurity, but so far something else always pops up and everything goes fine again.

I haven't been blogging because nothing much interesting is happening in my life, and so there is nothing to blog about.

Anyway, i really appreciate those people who actually did bother to reply my smses, pretty disappointing when i tried to wanna organise an event but no one is free.. wtf..

another day another story..

my 3 days off is coming up, there's so many things that i wanna do..
sun-tann, clean up my room, rest .. SLEEP ...
im so into work and i haven got time for anyone..
but does anyone has time for me .. nah !! i dun think so ..

so whose free for a picnic on the 21mar.. let me know!

wee, can't wait for changmai to come.. 0off i go !!

2009-03-15T01:33:00.003+08:00

After a long wait .. 3 month..
My BestiE is finally back !! but only for 5 days!
Ever since she left back home, i hardly can talk to her like how i used to ...

TodaY was a Really a fun n enjoyable dayout with PEgyy, Her & her cousin brother..
Thou things dont seem to be how it used to be, but i really enjoy myself today..
Head to Little India, den to Mustafa shopping centre, Sentosa, and last Geylang..
woah what a killer!

It's gonna be long distance friendship but fate has brought this friend to me, so i have to treasure this friendship no matter what.
Its really how amazing how we both met. From strangers, to working colleagues and now to my close n dearest friend.
and soon, peggy would be leaving to head back home..
and soon i will lose another close friend.

No doubt i dont have a good impression of those people, but this two friend has proven me wrong.
They have been the best lot of those people whom i have come across..

I canot bear to see her to leave again..
the first time to see her leave was really a terrible feeling.
but i was really glad that i was able to see her again today .. 14 MAR

But she's flying off to head home today~~sob sob
and she might not come back to singapore again ..
when would be the next time that i get to see her again~!

She gave a cup today .. in chinese its called 'bei zi'
and it means that our friendship will be like this 'bei zi' - yi bei zi (forever)
and when i heard that , i was very touched..coz this friend of mine really mean smth to me ..

thank you so much for everything..
i will treasure this 'bei zi' for life..

xie xie ni ..

2009-03-11T22:34:00.005+08:00

ANY IDEA WHOSE THIS MAN ??

He's RODERICK STEWART

i was given a chance to meet MR ROD STEWART when he arrived in Singapore
from london... a day before his concert ...
I can still recall what happen on that day when i was told to pick him up...
i was wondering who is this guy that everybody is talking about..
OFF i went to the arrival gate B4, together with other colleagues of mine ..
and of course his manager, michael..

Everyone seems to be very happy n excited when they heard ROD STEWART is coming and i was thinking who is this guy.. i really have no clue about him ..

Aircraft onchocked, door opened and i saw this white man standing there, exactly of what my friends describe to me, a funny mole that he has on the face..

Escorted ROD STEWART to arrival hall, cleared immigration with himself, together with his family members and his crew...
Indeed a celebrity with many posh staffs.. PRADA n LV
a total of 16 bags he had..omg!!

I even ask b whose this ROD STEWART but i really have no idea..

and finally went home n found a few videos on him singing...

i must say ... he's superb~
his voice really makes you melt when he sings!

i'm so glad that i met him and had a converasation wth him ..

chinese new year..

2009-01-29T23:36:00.004+08:00

HAppy New yeaR.. xing nian kuai le..

sorry that i haven been updating my blog for a long long time..

have decided to get a new skin for my blog..

new skin new start...

hmm think i should update my blog now n den..

at least i can think n say what i want and have in mind...

phEW!

i really appreciate the thoughts of you calling and informing me that you're heading back to sg
you said you wanted to see me when you touch down but all i get was a brush off msg
'i'll meet you one of these n i call you soon'
till date, i have recv nth from you and heard no news about you ..
heard a friend of yours, that you'll be returning on fri..30 jan

guess this time, i've really been treated like a sucker,
this time i've really been outcast by you
i feel so unfair..
what a fool am i..
i hate you for doin such things to me ..
but who can i complain to ? who is willing to hear me cry ?
sigh~
i really hate you for doin this to me

2008-07-18T00:30:00.003+08:00

hello guys, was looking thru the net and i found smth quite useful..just wanna share it with all of you out there..

How to be a good mate

Like any relationship you need to put effort in to keep a friendship going. Follow TheSite's ten top tips to keeping your mates and you'll never be lonely again:

Like yourself: How can others be expected to like you if you don't like yourself? It's no fun hanging out with miserable sods. Repeat the mantra - bah forget it.
Choose well: Don't overstretch yourself, while it's great to have loads of people you know and like, it's better to have a select few that you spend more time with.
Make time for each other: Don't abandon your mates at the first sign of lust, they're the ones you'll run to if it all goes wrong, and if you've vanished off the planet for a few months previous to this they may not want to pick up the pieces. If you are on the receiving end of this, tell your mate directly, as subtle hints tend not to work.
Treat them as you wish to be treated: Obvious? You'd think so, but most people fail on this one.
Make them feel wanted: Just like with lovers, where you may give surprise gifts, special dates and candle-lit meals, making your friend feel special can help make your bond stronger...and you may get gifts in return!
Speak: It is better to bring up problems before you get to the point of a massive row, but either way make sure you do discuss them rationally and apologise for being an idiot if necessary. Then let it lie and move on.
Listen: This is a two-way thing, don't expect them to continually help you out with your dilemmas and then have no interest in helping with theirs.
Trust and loyalty: These are essential to close friendships. You don't have to share everything, but if you do, make sure you don't blab to everyone else. How would you feel if they did the same?
Support them: If you want them to 'be there for you' you'll have to be there too.
Admit when it's over: If you bore each other and it's a chore to spend time together, then call it a day.

2008-07-08T00:27:00.003+08:00

This post is dedicated to a special friend who has now moved to another place.
A special friend whom i have made from the youth choir. We share the same passion, share the same faith. Thru Fate, God has brought us together. Now, he has brought you back to where you belong.
I couldn't believe that person i saw in the news was you. I thought i was seeing things, but after confirmation, it was you , Levin Angsana.
I cannot stop crying ever since that day the accident happened.
I know whatever i do now, you cannot never be back again..
When the news came out, i would be high hopes that you would be able to survive and probably got rescued to a safe place.
but i was wrong..

I'm sorry that i did not go and send you off.
I know if i'll be going, i'm definitely gonna break down in tears and cry.

the only thing that i can do now,
is to pray for your soul to rest in peace.

I promise that i will remember you in my prayers and i promise that i will remember forever.

2008-05-21T01:22:00.003+08:00

hello back to the cyberworld again ...
alright this time no more emo feeings again ..
would like to share some personal thoughts with you guys out there...
have been thinking about this for quite sometime...
everyone thinks being a pilot is a easy job..since when has it been easy!
with that pit cap on your head, bearing that huge responsibility to bring hundreds of lives here and there.
sharing those profits that the airline earn.
being able to travel around the world which many people can't enjoy
earning thousands of dollars each month.
THINK AGAIN !
your decision can affect everyone on board the flight.

scenario one:
you have a hundred pax on board a flight with you on the way to a destination.
half way thru the flight, your crew comes up to you and inform you that you have a pax who needs immediate medical attention (critical condition) , if not the person will die.
you as captain of the flight who is in control of everything of the plane.
what would yr decision be ?
to stopover to the nearest airport to allow that pax to get medical treatment.
if you stopover, the airline will have to compensate to the other passengers on board as they will lose their connecting flight if they have any to that destination.
they will be not be there on time.
some businessman will not be able to sign a one million contract..
would you choose to save a life or the airline will have to suffer a huge loose for the compensation.

life is just so difficult to handle.

even marriage!
if you marry the RIGHT man, you're considered blessed !
what if , you marry some man that you think you will regret for the rest of your life.

thats why its never easy to make a decision.
life is just so tough, dont you think so ?
every choice that you make, somehow or rather, it will affect the people around you

penny for your thoughts..

jassie...

2008-05-16T01:13:00.002+08:00

haven been bloggin for sometime..
haven found the right reason to blog or maybe i should say now i've got the reason to blog becoz
i've got no one to turn to ..
everyone sooo busy with their own work .. those should be wrking are wrking ordy, those suppose to be going to sch are attending classes everyday except for me
i guess i'm the one leading the abnormal life.
when my friends ask me out i gave the reason that i'll be wrking
and when i'm free trying to get my friends out, they would be wrking ..
everyone grown up now..they lead their own life and settle their own things n shit..
i'm clearing my piece of shit everyday...
i'm really worn out..sick n tired
at work, i've got no one to turn to, to pour out my sorrows, my complains.
i'm at that stage feeling so lonely and down.
back to home, i lock myself in this lonely room of mine, facing the com listening to songs.
talking to people whom i call friends but do they consider me as their friend ?
i have long forgotten those people whom i call true friend
who are they ?
i'm really feeling so lonely and down
feeling very depressed, upset everything and everything
feeling very lost, feeling so demoralised
can someone send me some direction to follow ?

ever since there's no more cornerstones.. there's no more sense of belonging that i feel b4
i'm sorry gurl if i've got to call you almost everytime jus to talk to you
i guess you're the only one who knows me, really !
you have given me promise of a fren, who promised to be there for me all the time
i'm sorry if i have to be a pain in the a**
sorry guys, i wanna let you all know this:
i'm so glad tat i make it to shabs birthday dinner tat night
even thou dinner was ex n little, but the friendship has filled me with joy
which almost made me cry becoz after sooo long. we finally met up
almost everyone dearest to me was there..

when would it be the next time tat we ever meet again ?
PGs : when can we ? when ???

if you're are my frien ?
can you please tell me again ?

thank you ..

2008-02-25T21:41:00.000+08:00

i miss you

you heard me ?

i miss your voice

i miss your kisses

i miss your everyting

where are you ?

can you head me crying out loud

2008-02-09T01:49:00.000+08:00

part I
just realise that you changed yr number
to avoid me
or never to contact me ever again.
or to never let me know where's ur whereabout.

i know what you mean now..

part II
i'm happy in csu now..
really happy
people there are so niceee..
i'm so grateful i've got a good mentor..he's super nice!!
i hope its UFN..
i'm going to love my new uniform ..
will take many many photos of it..
wheeeee
valentine's day is coming..
i'm free anyone ??

2008-02-08T11:26:00.000+08:00

happy new year everyone..
gong xi fa cai !!
new year just another routine thing again but i always love to eat the food that mum cooks
coz i only get to eat it only during chinese new year so probably some random days..
all my relatives are heading overseas to celebrate their new year..
who know maybe they wan to save on angbao tats why..

on the first day of new year..special someone came over my place to have lunch after a long arguement!! was nice to have that special someone over. den i wun be so bored for the whole day.. things happen and i wan to forget !! spare me the details
special someone had to go aunt's place but last min got called off n that gave another excuse to stay a while longer..
had to mit friends for movie so no choice haf to leave...
oooo but it was nice...*sweets*

but the bad thing that happen to me was falling sick on chinese new year..
flu sore throat cough flu
i hope mr fever don't come knocking
i wanna recover soon ..

to shabs: please change our date to the 14 can .. 16 i really really can't
please!!!

to you

i'm just hurt by what you said
you wld just think this wld be test
i've never treated you like a guinea pig
probably who knows now you're happily attached with that girl who is is love with you
the gurl who i saw you having ur supper with at geylang
it doesn't matter anymore
i'm just like yr little guinea pig too..
thank you for bringing me so much that i have to forget
so much that i don't even know which one to start from

i wanna run away

2008-02-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

this is for you ..
jeremy kam ming li !!

I don't want this moment, to ever end,
Where everything's nothing, without you.
I'll wait here forever just to, to see you smile,
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.
Through it all, I made my mistakes.
I stumble and fall,
But I mean these words.
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.
Thoughts read are spoken, forever in doubt.
And pieces of memories fall to the ground.
I know what I did and so, I won't let this go.
Cause it's true, I am nothing without you.
All the streets, where I walked alone,
With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end.
I want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
These words are my heart and soul,
I hold on to this moment you know.
Cause I'd bleed my heart out to show, and I won't let go.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you don't know what you're looking to find.
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies,
When you just never know what you will find.

and I won't let go.

2008-02-01T22:41:00.000+08:00

now i'm alone in this world facing all the problems

now he's gone

he will nv return anymore

there's no more goodnight kisses

no more morning kisses as well

its going to a brand new life for me now

i got to be strong now

stronger

2008-01-20T14:56:00.000+08:00

i'm feeling really lost

i felt as if you tried to save me with the float

but you left me hanging in the big blue sea by myself

2008-01-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

i thought we manage to make things up again
but why do things have to turn out this way ?
i was so happy that you decided to give me that last chance

my heart sank when i saw that stain on yr shirt
it really hurts me, but i cant show you my anger

you disappear again
by not switching on yr phone, what are you trying to do?
i'm scared , scared that things will happen like in the past
can some one direct me again ?

Bubbly Colbie Caillat

2008-01-15T15:39:00.001+08:00

2008-01-15T15:26:00.000+08:00

ten more days counting from today
counting down to BANGKOK
yippieee...
going with the whole family.
everyone!
this is the first time everyone is going holiday
i mean everyone in the house,except for my grandma la.
cant wait to see my aunt n uncle
shopping, shopping and shopping and more shopping
and that wld means my pay including my bonus wld be gone too...
but its ok, once in a while its ok

hmmmm...saw this china gurl at work having a gucci bag, damn nice
but wondering if its real or fake who knows maybe - made in china
hahah

having bad cramps now, really !
this sucks
aarrgghhhh
wanan rest but have to head out later with my sec sch fren whose leaving us to study
thinkin if i shld go annot...
wells, it doesn't matter if my presence wld make a difference thou
yeap
alrights guys
wanna go rest 4 a while.

love all

jasmine

Shrek-Halalujha

2008-01-13T21:45:00.001+08:00

2008-01-13T21:25:00.000+08:00

I shant deny the fact that i still love you

I shant deny anything

But...

Once broken...

I guess no matter how much adhesives i try to use, i just cant fix it back...

No matter

but all i ask if one last chance

to prove my love to you

i'm very sure that our love can go through all the test that is ahead of us

my heart can't stop crying

i wan to find back the love that we've lost

2008-01-13T00:23:00.001+08:00

my heart is crying

whenever i close my eyes, tears wld just fall out by itself

really painful

all i ask is one more chance

2008-01-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

its been a long n lonely day for me
was sick having fever n a bad throat, thank god i m off today so didnt had to go to the doc to get a mc.
baby had to leave to KL for his own holiday without me!! how fair can this be. humph
wondering what is he doing now?
the room is practically quiet without him and i feel pretty empty as well...sigh
tried callin him but his fone is off - as usual
hate that feelin of bein alone
whenever i'm sick, he's there to take care of me but now he's away can't get used to it
another 5 more days den he wld be back
he told me unless he's sick of that place den he wld be back
hopefully he sick of that place n he comes back tmr(evil laughs)

new year's eve is pretty good for
even though i did my little countdown at home, but its my first time counting down the new year with my bf, at home, physically with him as well too.
when the moment 2008 came, i gave him a big hug n burst out into tears.
tears of joy and also the tears of sadness too...
coz i had to bid goodbye to 2007..how silly am i
i wish this year would be a better for me and Us of cause

i love you hubbybaby

2007-12-31T22:27:00.000+08:00

in a few hours time, i've got to waved goodbye to year 2007.
many things have happen during the year, be it good or bad.
this year have really been a tiring year for me
this has brought a close to all the things tat i've been doing in church, everything with the cornerstones
the happy memories, the problems that we've got thru with each other
but after so many years, they have make me grow in a stronger person, they have changed the way i think, my temper and even my emotions.
i feel very wasted that its gone now.
there's no longer be cornerstones in church but deep down in my heart, it will always remain here
i will have to carry everything that i've learnt with me and move on to the other chapter that i will begin with.

looking back in the year 2007, the choices that i've made, the friends that i've met, the problems that i've encountered, the arguements that we've got, the downfalls that i have but of course this will add on to the nice things that have happen.
let me recall what special things...

1. converted to sats on 19 june 07
2. meet him on 280307
3. him bringing me to batam to meet his other family members
4. bringing me to Kl for our little holiday
5. spent my 21st birthday with him
6. my precious DIAMOND ring

on top of these, we had our bad times too..
things that almost made us fall apart
hopefully this year would be a better year
i promise him that i will change to be a person this year.
to change my stupid temper, my attitude towards everyone
and of coz not forgetting the things that i promised him..

may 2008 bring everyone a good year
and may our love be stronger yeah !
baby i love you

once again, wanna wish everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2007-12-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

when i saw his going away again, i was shocked.
where is he going this time ?
is he going to run away again this time round ?
i was scared
my mind was really running wild
maybe he just needed the time to be alone.
i duno

i'm going to apply leave in jan for our first family holiday trip to bangkok.
25-28 jan!
hopefully admin approves my leave
and that means i must start saving up my money + my pay
cannot go shopping from now till jan
coz i'm going to do my shopping in bangkok
hopefully baby's going too.. coz he told me so tat he's going to apply leave as well
and hope he gets it
and that also means i can to see my aunt in thailand.
omg i miss her so much
wondering what should i get for her when i see her.. hmmm, ponders
any ideas ?

what should i get for our little PG's gift exchange ?
secret, not telling anyone.. hehe
you think i'm buying for you.. NAH!!! wait long long k

oh gosh what a timing to blog. i've got so many things i wanna blog about but i've got no time..
i wan to slp now, so tired aft the 'long' swim at nini's house
ZzZzZzZzZ..
can you hear my bed is calling me now,
alright peeps, update again yeah

Cheers

2007-12-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

the moment that i realise when my precious phone was missing.
my heart starting pumping even more.
the phone that my hubby bought for me, it was just so precious to me that i couldn't describe how
the phone was like my pillar of strength.
inside contains the beautiful pictures that we took, the promises that you made to me
and those touchy n mushy words that you told me
and now its GONE.
everything about you n me
whatever i have now is the beautiful memories that we had for the past 8 months
i would have to cherish those beautiful memories until my last breath is taken away.

i blame myself for feeling so insecure these few days
hate this side of me

2007-12-23T02:32:00.000+08:00

i can finally access to the cyber world again telling the world how i am feeling now.
i feel totally shit.crapped and hopeless.
this feeling has been with me since that day. i made out the mess myself, and now i have to clear the shit and the mess myself as well.
i have no one to turn to now , well, that explains why i have to turn to online bloggin .
i wan to cry out loud. my heart is so weak now, my strength of pillar is gone and he's the man that i really love.
no one has shown me or taught me how to love and really love your partner wholeheartedly.
i'm listen to class 95 now and they're really playing those songs that makes me even more weak
its all about love songs.
baby, if you're reading this now, this is really from the my heart. i wan to tell you so many things. but i'm afraid of the ego side of you.
i know you don't wan to show me that side of you , but i guess i'm seeing it now.
the past few weeks for me is totally shit. i feel so weak without you beside me
i feel so lost.
the day when you went away, it was the most horrible day for me in the whole entire life living in this lonely world for me.
i dun wan you to think that i make you learning experience becoz of yr previous gfs.
you've showed me what is love all abt, but i guess i only knew the true meaning only when things start to happen and start to change for me.
i love you and its true. things has ordy change and wld be the same again like how we use to be in the past, i really dunoo. i have no clue at all.
i know whatever i say it useless, becoz words don't mean anything to you ordy .
i can only show and to prove it to you .
i have to be strong now even though at times i really feel like giving up, but i can't bear to see us separate.
it hurts me now when i see you falling ill and you don't wan me to take care of you .
it just hurts me so badly.
i really got no one to turn to now.
i'm really trying to be a better gurl now.
i wan to change..
change for us and also for our future
i really meant it when i told you that i wan to go register for rom
i'm nt kiddin.
you might think i'm jus taking it for fun but no
i really mean it
i know it takes time for us to get back again, i'll wait no matter what
but i really do hope you give me a last chance to really prove what i meant was for real
like the song A1 sang:
Please give me one more try for the sake of our love
Let's give it one more chance coz I can't give you up.
I can't live one more day without you in my arms
I could never find another like you.

i can neveer find another man who loves me as much as i love you
never
all i ask is just one last chance.

2007-10-28T16:18:00.000+08:00

i seriously don't understand what is he trying to do. he has plans for everyone and started off everything from nothing and till today i believe there is something that he has made.
five years ago, i made the decision to join this youth group called CORNERSTONES. I had no idea what it was, what will we do and who was the other people who is going to join it as well. Everyone's talking about it and discussing about it so might as well join it since my close friends would be joining it as well.
Together as a group we've done so many things together, camps after camps, sessions after sessions, so many beautiful memories that we've shared together, tears,laughters but of course true friends that i've made N of course the trust that we all have built together.
Ever since i've join sats, life is very boring for me. i was not able to spend more time with my beloved stones. I could not express my thoughts to them any longer. i feel very far away from them now. i feel very lost whenever i meet up with them. not saying this because feeling left out with them but its like so weird..maybe we've got no more common topic nowadays.
why am i feeling this way? sometimes i really feel that i'm laughing stock of the group. i can't be bothered anymore.
when i got sheila's msg that day, i got really upset and it got my thinking real hard. what's happening to us ? what was the real reason that he wan to disband us, everyone of us ?
i got very upset till that sunday when i heard the real reason why.
i don't really blame him now. maybe he has his own reason for doing such things. but i just didn't liked the way that he jus wanted to end it like tis!
whatever that is going to happen next, i am just goin to take it and not blaming anyone for it.
but to be honest
i can't bear to let this go like that .. really

2007-07-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

hello the world out there. haven been really blogging due to some work issues now.
damn the work.
but not forgeting passengers that has made my day.
and of course last but not least the bf.
he's really the best and he's the only one who understands so much better den anyone else.
he's just my best friend, my bestie at work and also other affairs.
he's also my shopping kakie.
he brings me out for shopping like no one's business
he has brighten my life in many ways.
without him, i wouldn't know how does geylang looks like at night.
bf, thank you for being there for me when i needed you .
thank you for making my delicious breakfast everyday
thank you for letting me to try the delicious corn in batam
i will miss it !!!
*hint

2007-06-09T19:13:00.000+08:00

hello everyone. i'm back after 3 months. haven got the time to update everyone,
i' m feeeling a bit sleeply right now coz i'm not feeling really well..
everyone's not at home.
mum went holidaying! dad is away..
my sisters ?
half of the time they're not around as well..
so only left my grandma, my hardworking n funnie maid.
bf is at work he will only be back at 1030.
alot of things happening right now. sometimes i feel i got no one to turn to.
no body seriously understands the situation at home.
tmr is the feast of st anthony. we're goin to sell our krabbi petti!
sounds interesting and fun!
mum is coming back in the evening..i missed her for a week ordy,
i think she's having fun out there, hey mummy, dun forget abt me when you're shopping k

2007-03-23T13:36:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i last blogged about my miserable life.
its been a tiring week for me, working morning shift, thinking about what's gonna happen to us
hoping that there might the slimmest hope that i can hope for.
i got no one to turn to. no one really knows how i feel about this whole relationship.
the lonely nights that i got to spend on my own.
a period that that i've to go thru it myself.
i dun blame you for doing this to me,
i blame myself for everything. everything that has happen
like i've told you, i'm wililng to change, for the better of course.
please give me one more chance for the sake of our luurve.
please give me one more chance coz i can't give you up.

it hurts me to see you like that. totally!
i'm confused
i'm hurt
i'm lonely
is it true that your credit is running low.
i'm starting to doubt myself.
i'm questioning myself everyday.
itzz my own wishful thinking
or i'm being naive.
i hate this feeling. this sucks to the max.
no one could ever understand how i'm feeling right now.
i just wan to start everything again.

2007-02-20T00:41:00.000+08:00

no chance
no hope
nothing yet.
hopes are gone.
thinking that maybe i still could give it a shot.
hopeless.

this new year has been really boring.
i'm so tired.
i wish that i could just sleep.
was on the way out yesterday.
saw this ambulance driving really fast.
imagine this:
everyone around you is celebrating new year.
what about those who is suffering from cancer,
dying in the hospital.
orphans.
i'm really thankful that i've got those people around who love me
who dotes on me alot.
thanks a million

2007-02-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

as usual a normal day, feb 14.
its only a valentine's day.
what so great about it.
sigh.this is not helping.
too bad this year, no flowers again.
but its alright
i still got my friends around me,showering their love to me.
yeap.

went to submit my resume today.
after a long decision.
so now i just have to wait.
wait n wait n wait.
19 feb is the date for me.
a different path.
a different chapter of my life.
beings from there.

2007-02-13T23:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL

its another normal n boring day again.
am off this week, trying to settle everything.
clean the house, my room
send in my resume to JAL
praying hard that i would get in.
its how funny that people would actually spend a bomb on flowers on this day.
the last time that i got flowers was on my birthday.last year.
hmm did i receive anything on valentine's day.
i think i did but i can't rmbr
i'm sure that it was not from any of my boyfriends.
Valentine's day is not about spending it with yr lovers
it can be your family, friends, best friends.
but this year
i think i'm going to spend it with friends.
my special group of friends.

i really pray that i can get in to JAL.
to experience things that i've not experience before.
please pray hard for me.

2007-02-04T01:47:00.000+08:00

have you ever felt like you knew someone a long, long time ago? Another place, another time, a friendship of the souls? Two people who share a bond for reasons neither know, A feeling that they were friends, a long, long time ago? Did they stumble onto each other by pure circumstance, Or was it fate and destiny that played a certain hand? Two souls intertwined, they are worlds apart, But the soul, it knows no difference, in matters of the heart. Somehow they are drawn together, fate has brought them back, Each living worlds apart, they journey separate paths. When this life is over, and a new life begins, Their souls will find each other, two souls that we call friends.

thank you my friends
PGS.
i luurve you guys

2007-01-22T16:21:00.000+08:00

working life was never part of my plan
but why do i have to go through all those shit
people often ask me how come i'm working two jobs
how do i answer them
do i have a choice to have two jobs
maybe i should state it clearly here.
my parents are not supportive of my education.
my parents dun give me $ anymore.
i have to earn to pay whatever bills i have
and to come n think, if i really wanna continue my studies, who is going to pay for it ?
my own expenses, transport and those necessary things.
i'm really tired.
totally drained off.
why can't you guys just understand me
for once.
i know i don't express my feelings to you . to who i can tell all my problems
he's up there,knowing what i'm going through. but being called my frien, do you ?
all of you have the support of your family members, i don't have
do i belong to this family or that ?
or do i even have a family in the 1st place

i really feel that this world is not fair.
so what if i graduate from a private school ?
so what if i don't have a cert from a local poly?
that does not make a professer.or a genius ?

now i have to make a choice.
commitment to the stones and also a full time job
which is more important
i've been really praying
i don't hear anything from that little voice
i'm lost
totally lost.

2007-01-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

work work work.
been working since monday.
morning shift.
730-1630
delay flights.
so troublesome.
excess baggage.
ticket problems.
flight return to bay
medicial case.
shit man
went work alone.feeling so naked without my mp3 player.
i'm thinking to get another mp3 player.
which one should i buy.
can someone give me ideas?
i need a new fone too..
hmm.
ideas.
anyone ?

2007-01-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
LAU PEI YI JUSTINA ..
finally now you're 20.
and i just want to say that i'm
really proud of you .
coz you're the inspiration for me to
work harder.
may you enjoy this special day
and may the lord continue to shower
you with his many blessings.
:)

2007-01-12T00:52:00.000+08:00

after a long decision.
jill and i finally make our way to town today!
for retail therapy.
retail therapy: thumbs up!
bought a few things
a adidas bag, a adidas water bottle.
and a shirt.
and the shirt was paid by jill dason.
by VOUCHER.
takashimaya having great.
sports sales till 14.
anyway jill. i had a great session with you today.
it was totally awesome, the funny things we did.
the crazy we laughted about.
i hope we can do it again

2007-01-11T01:14:00.000+08:00

Dear diary,
i hope you're listening to me blogging.
i'm feeling really tired about the nonsense that is around me
tired about the people who is doing those S***.
when can i let go of everything? this is too much for me to handle.
charlie, if you're reading this this is for you
how much i wish i could turn back time.
it was not me who want it this way.
why? why must all these things happen to me
they're still arguing on that issue that happened in 2006.
fuck!
whats their fucking problem.
whats wrong with them
i duno whether to curse them or just pretend nothing happen and be strong
no point talking to them.. you think they will bother to listen to you .
i tried.
tried calling them as what you told me to.
but in the end what did i get ?
cold shoulders? brushing me away with that kind of tone.
i don't wan friendship to be ruin.
i'm tired of wearing that mask pretending that nothing had happen.
charles: give me my own space, i know you've been trying to talk to me and try talking thing out.
i need my space.
i need to cool down.
i need to think
if you wan, try my e-mail.
i will reply!

xmas

2007-01-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

after shabs tagged my blog saying that i should upload some fotos. so here you go shabs
few fotos that we took during xmas(haha abit late i know)
these are those few monkeys that i truly love.
PGs: i'm missing you guys now! really. haha i serioulsy wonder where the hell we got Pg.
my cornerstones. 4 years. many more to come.
i luurve you guys

2006-12-31T22:34:00.000+08:00

as i bid goodbye to year 2006.
waiting for the arrival of 2007 to come.
i must say that 2006 has been a year of ups n downs for me
365 days.24hrs daily.7 days a week.
what have i achieve in 2006?
hmm.let me recall what have i done.
many things.many diappointing events.new friends i made.old friends leaving my life.
went to sch.now i've got my diploma.
jobs after jobs
camps n many camps that i've attended
qurrals.fights.arguements.break ups
what a year i must say.
many events that happen that make me so disappointed.
feeling inferior.my low self esteem.negative thoughts that made me so lowly.
friends that i've made this year.make me treasure our friendship even more.
friends i already had.make me love them even more.
friends that i've already lost.get lost
i really wanna start 2007 brand new
with many good things that will happen
with many good people around me
and as years goes by.i'm older now.
more sensible i must be.
must responsible i must be
more independent i must be

GOOD BYE 2006...

HELLO 2007

2006-12-25T13:38:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS !!!

this week has been a great n busy week for me.tiring man.
the 4 weeks of advent has been really great.
the 9 days of adevnt sessions done by the stones was pretty good.
like the one specially at aunt ann's house, coz we played pictionary.
i like our team.seeing our team winning and trying to beat the other team was funny.
bonding together with the rest was pretty good.thumbs up.
made me realise that there is other people that is less fortunate den me but still they manage to carry on with life and move on.

christmas is finally here.attended midnight mass with the stones. was great! awesome i should say!
after mass, was xhchanging those gifts, those little cards that my beloved ones made for me. somehow i would rather receive those handmade cards, coz it so much lovely and it so pricless and you cant get them outside no matter how rich you are, just so priceless to me.it just mean so much to me!
party after party this week.
headache!! argghh..carolling starting soon. can't wait

heading to my godparents crib later.duno what they're gona say to me again, as usual, wheres yr bf? bring him to come show us yeah.. hahah! they're such lovely people that i've ever had in my life. don't know wat my life is gonna be without them. godma n godpa: i love you all!
tonight party again. somemore have to follow a theme! retro! thanks to laurie n her crazy idea! i'm just gonaa wear the same, jeans n blouse.

Stones: i'm really glad that i've got you guys in my life. supporting me all the way. making me laugh, carrying me when i'm tired, talking to me when i needed someone to talk to.
(name not in sequence)
shabs : i don't know if you're reading this, i really hope to see you more often then the usual.
laurie: hey.its more then 11 years i know you okay. i know you half of my life. thank you for the patience that you've given me. aft penang, made me realise that i can't let go of that friendship.
nini: i'm gonna continue that hump song for you. thank you for making my life so beautiful.
Jill: thank you for teaching me so many wonderful things.thank you for being so patient towards me as well. i'm glad that i've got you in my life.
PG: i miss penang la!! haha you know what i mean ... PG gurls..
charlie: you're just god sent. god has sent you in my life to guide me.
jus: you're just too talented.keep it up yeah. i really hope in 2007, things will w0rk out yeah!
lari: i will keep on trying to move it up to the next level yeah
sheila: many years of friendship to come.thanks 4 all the laughters and smiles.
ant: i really want a true friendship. god will guide us yeah

5 more days to the end of 2006, and the coming of 2007
so fast, time really flies.
what is going to happen in 2007 for me ?
god knows!
he has everything planned for me yeah...

2006-12-16T14:24:00.000+08:00

i lost my phone.. !!

someone opened the fucking locker and took it away from me

son of the motherless goat ! to the one who stolen my things

so right now, i'm disconnected from the world...

if you guys can't find me.. tooo baddddd

2006-12-13T02:56:00.000+08:00

been a long time since i blogged..
was away 4 a week and many things happened in that week..
was away for youth camp and i made new friends.
had alot of memories, can't forget what happened 3 years ago.
time really flies.
don't know why i've been feeling so emo these few days. sorry pals if i'm been really moody and restless...
friends come n go in your life..
who are those true friends that you've made in your life.
are they true ? are they real ?
these questions have been on my head..
i've not found my answer yet

2006-11-22T19:34:00.000+08:00

FUCK OFF YOU STUPID BITCH
DON'T TAKE ME FOR GRANTED YEAH
THINK I TREAT YOU AS MY FRIEND BUT YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT...
FUCK OFF!!

2006-11-20T00:54:00.000+08:00

feeling lost!
feel so empty
who are those you call friends ?
calling me yr friend ? or someone who you can take for granted ?
you think i'm silly or a fool..
i'm stupid
FUCK OFF YOU BITCHES

2006-11-16T00:59:00.000+08:00

singapore 8th motorshow was a pretty letdown. not many cars was on display like BMW, cycle n carriage! was such a letdown , but it was a eye opener for someone like me who have not b een to a motorshow before, it's consider quite good already.. many photos to be uploaded
right now. i'm so in love with subaru car..so nice n exciting, fast n wild! hahahah... and guess what, my frien bought me a shirt, subaru's shirt..little crazie but it's was quite funie how i wanna buy the shirt..
last but not least, of course i manage to took some shots with russ swift, the world's most precision stunt driver.. he's damn cool la! ! really
anyway guys go for the motorshow if you have not gone for it, it ends on the 19 nov !!
so grab yr tickets now.. only $10 per person..

2006-11-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

marriage is suppose to be the affair of two..
i just don't understand why it would lead to a third party ?
marriage is a matrimony of two, what happen to the promise and the vows that you make before the father, and you broke it ..
a few seconds of words that made it so cheap n worthless.
so that means words of truth are not suppose to be trusted ?
even though, you say it infront of the priest and the father ?
a lifetime commitment that leads to a life time mistakes and regrets ?
//// speechless////

2006-10-26T14:15:00.000+08:00

i'm back to the blogging world..
haven been blogging due to come busy work at the airport..
work has been really nice for me..knowing that someone people still do care for me, showering their condition love for me, but ending up in a misery state, no way !!
doing gate duties now are more a challenage for me, knowing that he might be doin the same flight with me is a joy now.. made for him barley since he said he wanted me to make him something sweet so yeah.. hahaha
he went back home to visit his parents in sarawak. and the most funniest thing that i heard this afternoon, ' hey jas, you know something.. i miss my flight' hahaha serve him right!! who ask him to wake up late..but thank god he manage to book himself on the next flight..guess he's on his way home now..enjoy yrself when you're home k =)
i'm so gonna miss him coz i till sun den i can see him..

2006-10-15T14:39:00.000+08:00

ohhhh.. its been 5 days since i last blogged.. woah~ long long stories to tell.
hmm, lemme recall what exactly happen over the week..
11/10 - stayed at home to study for my basic theory. do those online qns do n do n do n do n rmbr everything but nothing was in my mind. scott wanted to ask me to go devils, but i was like eee dun wan la sure alot of ..... (fill in the blank) but oh wells, stayed at home,online and can't slp, probably was too excited n nervous for my BT la coz my BT was like the next afternoon..
wells.. woke up the next morning n it's already 12/10, it was jeremy's birthday, (my exbf) and i couldn't believe tat i still rmbr him wth!! i had to begged mum to buy wan tan mee for me since she's bring xing yi for breakfast so might as well..so while waiting 4 my breakfast to be served, i took out my BT book n started studying again den i fall aslp again..haha and that probably shows how tiring i was.. den came my breakfast ate them den continue studying again, tick dock and it was 2 and i must go get ready for BT now.. called laurie spoke to her n told her that i'm going to pass this time, if not i guess i'll just shut up n give up the idea of taking my license. i don't believe in doing the test and guess what .. I FREAKING PASS it la.. i told kenneth that i was so scared den he was like, fail nvm lor, take again la. i was like no way i'm going to take it again. hahah, i was so happy after my BT, calls came in to ask about how was it .. and they was like happy 4 me too.. yippie, n laurie also coz i called her just to tell her tat i pass. so after BT, here come the FT.
i'm still in a dilemma, should i take manual or auto, i'm so used to auto coz i drove in melbourne la.. hahahaha.. fought with DAD coz he wan me to take manual but i don't wan n i insisted to take auto, now we're having cold war la.. humph!! who cares~
after a struggle, decided to give manual a try. i'm starting my first driving lesson with a manual car on tues. 17/10, i hope i don't bang onto any car man ...
coz the next day its my birthday la..18/10
hmmm.. whats the plan ?
~shall be continued

2006-10-10T16:24:00.000+08:00

everything so unplanned.
everyone's not confirmed.
i hate this kind of feeling ! this sucks
Bt coming on thur, think i going to fail again ! fuck !
i dun wan !!
bad day every also bad day for me la..

2006-10-06T00:55:00.000+08:00

hey my dearest sweeties n guys,
well as you know, a special occasion is coming.. what?? a saint's birthday!! and it falls on a 18 oct sad to say it falls on a wed, and i know you guy can't club on a wed right..!! damn !! but i was 'thinking' really thinking n thinking, should we club on tat day den you guys go take mc coz maybe wann go dbl o la.. but den .. come n think again, i know you guys wun go take fine..nvm !!
so this the plan, is either we go club on fri or sat ? which club do you guys suggest? guess some of you are already sick n tired of DXO righ, well..what alternatives do we have ? tsk tsk.. how how how .. ok ok .enuf of crap!! either we club on 13,14 or 18 or 20 ? both also a friday and what should we do on the 13 ?

Jasmine
*pls R.S.VP with me asap yeah.. - 97352044 =)

2006-10-01T02:03:00.000+08:00

happy children's day to everyone..
happy children's day to me

2006-09-27T11:41:00.000+08:00

i just want to be alone for now.
guys get out of my life, i don't need you to come n mess up my life for me

i really wanna be alone, mixed feelings
i rather be alone

2006-09-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

i need retail therapy..

2006-09-21T15:27:00.000+08:00

happy 20th birthday jess~
one year older now, oh no, tat means its gonna be my turn soon .. damn!
its alright doesn't matter !!

well, alot of things to say but i haven got the chance to tell everyone, so here it goes. to all my friends: ( name not in sequence)

Jess- be happy with whatever you have, coz you only live once
Jh- you can be the most funniest thing on earth, quit smoking PLEASE, it'll just be worst if you continue. you're the most cutest thing on earth. wo ai ni !! yu qing! and you finally know what is a tampon huh
ming- i've seen you grown, you've have really grown
YY- you're the most xing fu ger among all of us, coz you've got nic to dote on you, i hope we can be closer.
mich- you're not alone my dear gurl, you have all yr friends with you.
Aq- give urself a chance, and you're not a bad gurl. lurrve you babe.
huici- although we're not close, but i'm glad you're my frien, hang on there.
laurie- years of friendship, i can't afford to lose you
jill- thank you for being there when i need someone, i'm really glad i have you in my life
ant- i wanna have a closer friendship with you
nini- you're a good listener! thank you for giving me those good advice that i needed someone
shabin- i hardly see you around, but i can honestly tell you that i really miss you alot
charles- stop going around borrowing dvds, get your own !! hahah
lari- i know we're not close, i guess it just the way we are.
jus- you should try eating more, you're too skinny!!
sheila- you're really a great leader. keep it up. we're not close but i really hope one day we are
christie- i really miss the times that we write letters to each other, i really miss you now..
seng- you're someone special, thank you for everything.
shennie- don't keep on playing, study hard ok.. dun make daniel worry for you coz i know he is.

i just wanted to say all these to all my friends who had made an impact in my life. someway or somehow..

no matter what, jasmine still loves you !!

2006-09-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

was watching the tv earlier on, realise tat there are many kids in singapore they dun have a chance to study. parents can't afford the books,fees etc..
its really sad huh..many of us have been to schools,primary,secondary, jc/poly, uni.... just becoz our parents wants the best of us, and i really appreaciate it alot!
but many kids in singapore don't really think that education is really impt. to them, is just a torture but to other kids who are dying to go school is a different issue..sigh duno why i'm feeling so down also shit*
hmm, thinking whether should i go for a tattoo..?? painful man .. but like quite nice ar.. but den .. aiya nvm !!

anyway guys, i'm planning to head down to JB on this coming sat, anyone ?? pleease let me know asap k

*yawn* my bed is calling me now..
BABOOSH

2006-09-15T00:15:00.000+08:00

mc for two day! seen a doctor after so long. check this out
doc: so are you studying or working ?
me: studying
doc: woah, ok! so i guess you need a mc to cover you today
me: yeap
doc: do you need another mc for tmr as well?
me: of course, might as well, long weekend!!

haha. the doc so nice right haha.. guess i should visit him more often

my throat really hurts*

2006-09-11T15:41:00.000+08:00

arghhh, having to wake up early in the morning is a very tiring thing but i tried, i really tired, its just tat i'm really not feeling well
just imagine to wake up in the morning to see yourself so itchy, scratching here n there damn itchy la..
tmr got to go back to work .. damn xian,
i need some sugar rush in me to make me hyper again !! chocolates ? sweets ? anything..

2006-09-10T23:45:00.000+08:00

monday blues..!!
i can feel it coming
i'm going back to work..kids, goin to finish at 5 everyday.

saw a pair heels in town (HMV) today .. but damn!! wasn't in a good outfit to try it, hmm, i'm thinking to go back tmr and shop again, but whose willing to go with me.. should i buy it ?? hmmmm...
jess's birthday party on fri, got dress code all!! but den, i duno what to wear!! i got nothing to wear anymore!!

arrgghhh, i seriously need a sugadaddy..!! anyone can intro me ..

2006-09-10T00:43:00.000+08:00

i just hate it when a skinny person sees another person who is rather 'bigger' or whatever, they will just call them fat, or fatty. its so rude!! freaking bloodly rude.
so what if you're skinny, so what if you're muscular? so what if you wear a 's' or 'm' ? do you have such things to hurt people's feeling..
i can't stand it !!
and come on, gurls stop saying FAT if you're not.. if you're fat, you're fat. if you're skinny, den stop saying you're fat!!
can't stand those people, always trying to get those 'unwanted' attention' !!!
i'm sorry but i must just admit yeah i'm fat!! ok!!
i'm feeling sour tat i'm really trying to be slim n slimer ..

2006-09-08T14:42:00.000+08:00

seeing people on the road thinking that driving is easy, to be honest its pretty easy!
i really go get my license soon .. really !! i really wanna pass and drive that car SFX 2150P.
feeling pretty upset and i don't know why..mixed emotions.pmsing.upset.bla bla

i wanna pass my tp !!

2006-09-06T16:24:00.000+08:00

GUYS ARE JUST JERKS.. LADIES DON'T YOU AGREE WITH ME...

they make the effort to come n woo you, saying those sweet words to you, trying to get that fragile heart.. and once they see your friend who is prettier den you, he'll come asking what's your friend's number...
i guess it's always the case that a guy always so frickle headed..
hmmm, think of this situation ok:
girl A : slim, sexy but look ugly
girl B : fat, plump, but pretty
Qn : which one would you choose ?

sometimes life is just not fair..
in this world,what really exist ?
in the past, true love really goes exist, but now what is true love?

people get married becoz of the baby ? and divorce because the man found someone better.

i'm so sick of love songs now..really!!
all the i love you till death do us apart are just words..if you don't mean it, it has no meaning at all, and just the words are cheap..
i can say i love you in just 3 seconds, it wil take 3 hours to explain and one life time to prove it..

Guys out there, never really tell a girl that you love her unless you're really ready to use your life time to prove it to her.

Gurls, never really trust a guy entirly coz out of 10 promises, probably 7-9 is just empty promises

2006-09-05T00:52:00.000+08:00

exams.. test.. exams.. books.. study..
it's over.. study so much for HR, can die
write almost 6 pages just for 2 questions can you believe it ..
got my results for my 1st module and 2nd module..its a credit ! ! ! it's like a A2 score
thank god !
i really hope i can do well for this HR mangement..

what should i do to my hair ? perm ? rebond ? highlight ? dye ?
which one.. someone tell me ..
dye.. highlight.. what colour ?

i'm shifting my com into my room .. like finally !!
own room phone as well..
i can whatever i wan in my room now.. YES YES
big major changes now, new closet i hope, coz mum gonna get me a new one.. !!
i going to re-paint my room, but what colour ?
big headache!!
someone help...

suggestions ?

2006-09-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

its teachers day.. happy teachers day to me
long weekend for me, monday exams damn!!
2 hours paper, can write until my hand break
all the best~

hmm..just got my pay from kindergarden
feel quite rich yeah.. but seriously i need to save it up man
otherwise i would have to declare brankrupt
bills bills n bills.. goodness
i want to plant a money tree, anyone knows where i can find it?
sugardaddy? where are you ?

2006-08-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

i just feel that people around me are just so pretendious..
one moment you feel as if you can't live without them
one moment you feel alllll alone
what are friends for ?
support ? encourage ? all these i don't feel from anyone
who are really your friends ?
my friend ? who are they ?

2006-08-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

have you realise how adorable kids are..
i never realise till i've met all of them ..
every morning i tell myself that i wanan go look at them. play with them and laugh with them.
it really feel so happy to see them smile..

here some glance fore you to see... enjoy

2006-08-26T23:00:00.000+08:00

for the next few months ..
no more alcohol for me
no more vodka for me
no more merlion yeah ..
trust me, the feeling sucks
puke puke puke den hangover.
can't rmbr any single shit that happen
but i'm glad that i've got friends to help me out
otherwise i don't know where would i end up

2006-08-22T11:11:00.000+08:00

i'm sick again - down with major flu n cough..bad sore throat as well
morning kindergarden, sometimes will work full day sometimes half day.
the kids there are so adorable
some are nice.some are extremly nice.
some are naughty. some can be a pain in the butt.
but i do really enjoy the company of those kids.
even though i can't bring them home n dote them like my own kid, but i'm glad that i've met them.

i'm confused i duno what i wanna do
dip in tourism n hospitalility mangemant ?
dip in early childhood teaching ?

2006-08-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

I woke up it was 7 Waited till 11
just to figure our that no one would call
I think i got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone?
When your spending everyday on your own and here it goes

I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight

2006-08-13T22:34:00.000+08:00

i'm really glad that she came for the celebration of friends.
we almost fought because of this.
the cleaning up was terrible i can say.
i've never washed so many plates in my whole entire life before. i can say it was fun washing with 2 monkeys that made my night better. thanks laurie n CC
trust me, i'm not gonna make dressing for that salad again .. goodness trial n error man !!
i hope she can come for the next one. really!
to be honest, i'm really happy .. really!! that she came
thanks mum .

2006-08-05T14:01:00.000+08:00

understand the misunderstood

2006-08-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

sigh...i feel so disconnected from the world...no internet...phoneless
starting work soon...new company...new people...same jobscope...same airline.
in case if you don't know...my phone got cut off so i can only receive calls and smses so don't expect me to call or sms you for the time being and you will hardly see me online coz its disconnected too...now im using my friend's com so yup

when will be my next sentosa trip? anyone interested? please call me...

i miss clubbing now, coz all my friends got nothing but projects so when will i club again?

2006-07-27T16:06:00.000+08:00

i'll be working ..
someone wake me up.
i'm feeling so lazy
sigh~ can't go sentosa this weekend!
sobs sobs

2006-07-23T17:44:00.000+08:00

what is trust n believing ? so much for saying we need to have trust with each other but somehow i can see that there's no trust in us, not just you n me, but with the rest of you.
you think that i'm trying to find an excuse not to go for recollection. you're pissed with me that's why not replies at all. you know how sad i . i just feel like leaving. and just disappear and not return.
try being sick n having terrible cramps and can't even leave your room. not having the mood to do so many things. i wonder where's the trust.
there's no one i can talk to. no one i can turn to . we are getting too far so far that i can't reach out to you anymore.. everyone.

2006-07-22T22:05:00.000+08:00

island card ? i'm soo gonna make it when we go sentosa again.. i dun care i wanna go !! on a friday ? pleease...someone.. anyone ?

stones ? AQ ? Jess ? JH ? Hui Ci ? Mei ling ? anyone .....

2006-07-17T15:05:00.000+08:00

what happens if one day i'm gone ? will you feel upset ? or you just be happy ?

do i mean something to you ? or i'm nothing to you ?

ppl don't usually treasure what they have till they lose it

2006-07-15T17:24:00.005+08:00

mixed feelings n thoughts are in my mind. do you really understand what i really want from you! you think you know my inside n outside out.but what's the real answer.have you got one?

went club on thur with jess.mr chua.AQ n last but not least joe!! had a lot of issues whether we should go anot but in the end we went. so much for the sms and taking the risk. thank god they didn't blacklist us or else nv have to think to enter mos again!! we had lots of fun yeah.. picking $$$ from the cage was the funniest man !! really .. but it's was nice and upsetting to see my friends getting upset.somehow seeing them crying n all. it really hurts me!! i'm that kind of person who really love my friends alot. i wanan be there for them all the time so i hope you all can give me a chance to show that i really do treasure this friendship! - this msg goes to : laurie, jill, sheila, christie, jess, AQ

i love you guys.. i know you love me tooo.. ( dun

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happily in love with you ..

2006-07-04T19:52:00.000+08:00

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truthNo you don't know what happenedAnd you never will ifYou don't listen to me while I talk to the wallThis blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hallWhere you've had me for hoursTill I'm sure what I wantBut darling I want the same thing that I wanted beforeSo sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no wayPlease keep your hands downAnd stop raising your voiceIt's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choiceIt's a simple suggestion can you give me sometimeSo just say yes or noWhy can't you shoulder the blameCoz both my shoulders are heavyFrom the weight of us bothYou're a big boy now so let's not talk about growthYou've not heard a single word I have said...Oh, my God

2006-07-03T01:31:00.000+08:00

thumbs up for SJV !!
it was awesome, it was bascially the best show i've ever watched in my life - the cure ( Q ray)
it was really good i can say
i thought it will just be a simple production to me, but with god's grace it turned out to be what i didn't expected!!
st john vianney has finally come to an end.i'm gonna miss rehearsals, miss counting the tickets, miss everyone in the production, everyone has worked their part to keep this going really well. i must say everyone had a part in this production.

this show has made me realise how impt priest are to us. thru st john vianney he has made close to god. one of the scene in the show made me realise how impt my dad was me.

a big thank you 4 those who came to support this production, even though i wasn't in the cast but thanks 4 the support!!

i miss the cast, the crew, admin team, ah gong n ah ma everyone that i was working with.

2006-06-25T00:49:00.000+08:00

new game: beach volley ball
play the game.love the game.

off to bangkok. back on wed.
peeps dun miss me coz i know you will. don't deny coz _ _ _ _ don't lie right..
haha..
stones. gonna miss you all..
jess: jogging ? you jog in spore k while i do mine in bangkok
ming: i wun forget abt you
nalph: listen to my fav songs k,slp early

production comin. please come k, don't make empty promise.

2006-06-23T14:14:00.000+08:00

if you are here, reading my blog i just want to tell you that i really miss you
even though the times we spend together is realli short, but it's was so nice to be by your side
i know. it was so beautiful =)
things aint working the way i want it to be but i'm glad, realli glad that you came into my life
i was sad really sad that things are not right. i hate myself. i hate myself for doing that.
sometimes your simple message really brightens up my day but now, i hardly can get a msg from you. i just have to get you out of my mind..shit it sucks!

2006-06-20T20:30:00.000+08:00

you think you are the best ?
you think you have the power or the right to judge people.
i know myself where i stand,
look down on me all you can ok
because i know i'm not perfect.
fuck care la
.leave me alone.
.don't ask me what happen.
/i'm not going to tell you/

2006-06-15T23:14:00.000+08:00

now i can't really say that i'm not a movie person anymore.. because you know why..
i've watch 3 movies in a day!!! omg, i can't believe it also la. I always feel that movies are just a waste of time, money and hmmmmm yeah. But after the long movie marathon, my views of movie has changed. well, this also have to depends the type of movie and also depend on me if i wanna catch the movie as well.
well, peeps if you haven't go watch she's the man, oh man, its really a loss really. The movie was launched in melbourne, wanted to go catch it over there but becoz didn't have a chance den too bad den i was really hoping to catch it in singapore.. so yeah since now it's here so i decided to get my friends to watch it with me.. THUMBS UP!! really nice.. and guess what, i watched it TWICE once in noon, once at night :) its my first time watching a movice twice can..oh good. but i reeally wanna go watch it again..anyone??
the next movie i wanna go catch is cars, heard from my friends saying it's a good cartoon so hoping to catch it soon b4 i go broke again..

2006-06-11T01:49:00.000+08:00

I'm on the verge of breaking down
I'm losing my faith
I'm losing myself
I didn't know nothing
I was stupid
I am foolish.
Am i lying to myself ?
can someone come n guide me
i really don't know what to do

2006-06-06T10:50:00.000+08:00

try saving $1 a day and by the end of the month, i think you can save up $20/$22 and that means you can come n watch the cure ( Q Ray).. please come n support me la, even though i know i'm not in the play itself well even though ppl would wanna see me on stage yeah.. but sad to say i'm not lah, but please!! give me face la..

TICKETS ARE AT $20 and $22 ONLY!Dont you think its sucha reasonable price for sucha POSH place like VICTORIA THEATRE. it's consider quite cheap for a place like victoria theatre.
I appeal to all my friends to come n support this production!! hmm.. should i get him to go ?
Mr chua: so how?
jess: confirm ?
Ming: are you coming
Aq: hey, i've smack his butt, so you coming?
Nalph: when are you going to buy the tickets?

he's away

2006-06-02T13:24:00.000+08:00

he's away for bangkok now.. he will only be back on monday!! guess he's having his own fun over there.. but i guess you deserve this.
coz when he's away, i'll be away for camp sec 3 camp, will be back on monday morning.can't wait to go 4 it..its the time spend with my stones(ohana)..you guys will know what i mean!

after this week, will be a hell of a time for me again, classes resuming, going back to work, feast day, hahah can't wait for feast day!! those who are free,please come n support us k.. the cornerstones!! hahah, can't rmbr what we're selling.. guess we're not going for feast day dinner right.. coz it's too expensive, we've been paying soooo many things until i have to self declare that i'm broke.. seriously no joke! i'm gonna miss my fav dish!! sobs sobs..its ok la.. some other time again k..

another 28 more days to the Cure, pls pls pls pls pls come n support me even thought i'm not in the cast, well i guess ppl would be disappointed if i'm not in the cast, but it's ok. please come n support ok.. nalph i know you will come so bring along ur family ok.. jess and mr chua, please get AQ they all to come lei .. pls!!! if you guys can save a $1 everyday, i'm sure you'll be able to make it for this production.. please and ming as well!! please don't disappoint me can can ..
anyway i need to leave for GSS now.. guess i can only enjoy and not start splurging money again

anyway have fun in bangkok- miss u

prepare for the worst

2006-05-31T20:54:00.000+08:00

went to meet ken today at city hall mrt station to have lunch with him coz it's his brirthday today!! after a long walk, we decided to have lunch @ machie :) he order smth that looks gross and i had sambal stingray.. i wasn't in the mood to eat so i manage to throw everything to him.. haha, he finish everything for me la.. so after machie, i thought of going to carrefour to buy my fav fruit juice but damn cravings came along, the crave for beancurd was damn strong la, so decided to bring him to eat it. he was walking n sweating at the same time la, goodness can't stand man sweating la!! hahah... he had a cold beancurd that manage to cool him down for a while but smth really funny happen at the shop.was damn funny la. "ah di, that one is for blowing beancurd''..
after beancurd session, went to walk around at ps. boring~ can see him yawning n yawning coz he didn't manage to slp well ever since sat la.. (sorry ken,its my fault) after seeing him so tired, we decided to head home.
i guess its the last time...
i'm prepared for the worst :)
*happy 21st birthday